When Anxiety Constantly Steals Your Inner Peace – How to Empower Yourself
It took me 30 years to figure out what was causing my constant feeling of being unsafe in any situations, trust issues and why I always anticipated the worst.
As a little kid I was always sick and on medications. So much so that my mother became good friends with my doctor, because we were constantly in her office! One day the doctor recommended that perhaps I should have my tonsils and adenoids out to solve my never-ending illness. I was only 4 years old. My mother agreed to it.
I still remember the day
I still remember the day when we arrived at the hospital for the operation. I can clearly see me and my mother sitting on the bench on this corridor, waiting. Out of the blue I notice this huge man walking towards us, saying something to my mom and trying to pick me up from her lap. I freak out and cling onto her like a monkey. He is trying to pull me off her and I fight as hard as I can. I remember feeling petrified, not knowing who this person is and what is happening to me. But more importantly, I don’t understand why my mother is sitting there passively, not trying to help me, protect me. Luckily, after a while the man gives up fighting with me and leaves. I feel relieved and hurt, by not being defended by my mother. Only a few minutes later 3 men arrives back and as you guessed, it didn’t take too long to peel me off her and take me away. I kick and scream as they are walking away with me. I see her sitting, not moving or saying anything to me. My world in suddenly upside down. Nothing makes sense anymore. All I want is to go home.
The next thing I know is waking up in the hospital room and being told what just happened to me.
A little too late
You see, as far as my brain was concerned the explanation was a little too late. The trauma imprint had happened by then. My little brain made sure to burn that memory onto my subconscious part FOREVER.
Why does the brain hold onto trauma?
The brain simply holds onto trauma for two reasons. One is to make sure you won’t experience it again, so it’s trying to protect you. Two, it’s holding onto the memory of trauma, because it was too painful at that time to find a resolution to it. A resolution it wants badly.
Whilst the brain records the trauma, it will try to make sense out it, so it can use it for self-protection later on. In a scenario like my experience what the brain will record is, that the world is an unsafe place. It will also assume that people are not to be trusted, because look what happened to you! Your own mother didn’t protect you from those men. So, you better be on the look out for danger ALL THE TIME.
From that day on my outlook on life, and people had changed, and little did I understand about that. I spent the next 30 years being on the lookout. Anticipating the worse in every scenario. Not trusting people. Waiting to be abandoned unexpectedly. Believing that I don’t matter. That something was wrong with me. Oh, and I kept my mother at arm length.
Until I remembered
A friend of mine one day tells me about this lady and that I need to have a session with her, because she’s doing something magical. I went along and had a session with her. I couldn’t really explain what happened on the table for the whole hour, but my body felt different afterwards. I felt calmer. I felt less hyper vigilant. Less suspicious. I started to wonder what had changed. I became curious enough to want to study it, so I signed up for the 2-year course. Boy, I had no idea what a journey of self-discovery and healing I was to experience during that 2-year course.
One day, when I was receiving a session at school, I relived my hospital experience. I saw it, like I was watching a movie, I felt it in every cell of my body. I heard my brain ‘making sense out it’. I was gob smacked. Suddenly everything that never made sense, made sense to me.
I got let out of prison
I honestly felt like I was just let out of prison. Understanding that there was nothing wrong with me felt incredible. Then came the anger. The anger I felt towards my mother. How could she do that to me?
Learning to let go of my trauma
It took me a while to learn to forgive her. I had to remind myself that we all do our very best in every situation. Yet, I just had a hard time understanding her action as a mother…. Until I learnt that she too went through a huge trauma with her mother when she was around 4. That information helped me find enough compassion towards her to let my anger go. But because my mother never resolved her trauma, she was unable to protect me that day, thus facilitated my trauma. Knowing what I do now about trauma, and how the brain works, I believe that that day she most likely relived her trauma and therefore was unable to respond to me. So, at 4 years old I got scarred with a huge scab.
My scab
You know when you cut yourself on something and your body forms a scab on it to heal it. What are the characteristics of a scab? It’s tough and rigid because it has to protect the wound, right? I had that scab on that wound for 30 years. That’s what unresolved trauma does to us. It hangs onto the scab for protection.
I now only have a nicely healed scar. It doesn’t bother me, doesn’t restrict me any longer. But I know what happened to me, because of the scar.
I became the scab remover to others
Since I graduated as an energy worker (which is what this 2- year course was) I came up with my own method of helping people suffering from unresolved trauma.
It’s called the Imprint Reset, which combines energy work with NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) and Health Coaching.
I cannot count how many clients I’ve had over the years, whom just like me were carrying old scabs around and living a limited, restricted life as a result of unresolved trauma.
I feel privileged to be able to assist them removing their scabs and set them free from the trauma.
Our body is always ready to heal if you give it a helping hand. We don’t have to live a shitty life. You can change it anytime.
If you have any unexplained, odd reoccurring feelings, thoughts, limitations I guarantee you that it’s because of an old scab you are carrying around. Whenever you feel like giving it up and starting a different future, I’m here to assist you.
I have done my Imprint Reset session with people from all around the world, as it can be done online.
Read, what a client of mine from Russia had to say about working with me:
Vika was experiencing regular panic attacks, tight chest, struggling to breathe, felt constantly stressed out and would easily get agitated in everyday situations. She had also been on anti-depressants for 5 years, which she didn’t want to take anymore.
“Regina, after first session I’m really better. Even if I have some sad conversation, or annoying person again calls, or problem at work or in my relationship with boyfriend, I feel that I can go through this. And I still don’t take pills!!!! And no panic attack! For sure sometimes I feel like I’m nervous, but it’s human being. We can’t be without sense. But I can control it. Thank you again Regina!!!!” – Vika
Now is the time to make the change you always dreamt of and create the future you deserve. Are you ready?
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